Holiday Hang-Ups

A few days after Christmas and a few days before my first fill. I am definitely awaiting this fill. Although I've gone through this process before, I am still a little nervous and excited. I'm excited about the restriction (oddly enough) and nervous that I won't feel it after the first fill.

This Christmas, I ate some of the wrong foods and serving sizes that were probably not what my surgeon had in mind. Fortunately and unfortunately, my surgery was a few weeks ago so I could eat regular foods with only minimal restriction from swelling. I did take advantage of that! However, I will NOT beat myself up this time. It's not too late for me to get back on track and get in to the gym. NO EXCUSES! My doctor calls the band a "crutch." Call it what you may, I am calling it "my motivation," because it is the little push that I need to do what will make me healthier.

I remember when I initially lost the weight. I was so confident, and that confidence led to happines...not because of how I looked, but because of how I felt. I approached situations differently and was more positive. My weight was one less thing "on my plate." The journey continues.

First stop on the journey--realization that this is really happening and that I have to do my part. I must exercise and eat healthy. Can't depend solely on the band, I have to rely on me!

Beginning of a familiar journey!

Yesterday, I got banded...again! I had Lap-band once upon a time, but had to have it removed due to complications. Nothing against the band. It was me and my surgeon being greedy and lazy. I got overfilled and my band ended up slipping or popping or something like that. Either way, it had to be removed. I could have gotten it replaced at that time, but my surgeon didn't know how successful he would be so I foolishly opted to go without the band. I say foolishly because I thought that I would be able to keep up my new eating habits and not gain my weight back. Not only did I gain ALL of my weight back, but I also gained an additional 40 or 50 pounds. I ended up weighing 110 pounds more than my lowest Lap-band weight.

After 2 years, lots of sweat and tears, and several phone calls to the insurance company, I was finally approved and able to get the Lap-band again! This time I am determined to have long term success. My band was placed on December 8, 2009. I am inviting you all to join me on this familiar journey to healthy living and a successful weight loss!